Waiting and the end

Well.  Here we are.  My EDD is SATURDAY!  I cannot believe we have made it this far. 

It is kind of funny how for so long you dread the baby showing up early.  You cheer making it to V-day because that way if the baby comes prematurely they have a chance of making it.  You watch every warning sign or clue there might be a problem.  And then you get to the end and the fear changes.  For me at least, it becomes what if she doesn't decide to come on her own?  What if we have to induce?  Does that increase my risk of C-section?  It is an interesting shift. 

I have also been amazed at how brutal this waiting game is.  The closest thing I can liken it to is the TWW.  IF and PAIF has been all about waiting -- waiting for test results, waiting for appointments, waiting for certain milestones.  But for me, this wait at the end has been the hardest.  Maybe it is because there is the anticipation of finally getting to hold that baby that has been over 3 years in the making.  Maybe it because the physical level of discomfort has gone off the charts.  Maybe it is the exhaustion amplifying everything.  Who knows.  Either way, the wait at the end is so hard and I am just so ready to meet this little girl. 

Physically, I am uncomfortable but hanging in there.  The OB seemed amazed at just how much pressure her head is pressing on my bladder at my last cervix check.  I have to pee about every 45 minutes which makes getting any sleep really hard.  My nausea has come back pretty strong at night and my lower back has really started hurting now that she has dropped.  Overall though, I feel like I can't complain too much.  Compared to some this pregnancy has been really pretty easy.  I don't have blood pressure issues, GD, or really any other complications so far.  So, a little discomfort is a small inconvenience I guess. 

I tend to cry when I get really tired and the other night I had a small meltdown session.  Honestly, though I think it helped because after a good long cry and a night's sleep I have felt so much better.

Induction has been pushed back to the night of 12/3 if she doesn't come on her own before then.  I am keeping everything crossed she shows up on her own and trying to enjoy this last little bit before we have a newborn in the house!

Overall, I have been very blessed and am so excited to see Madison's pretty little face!