Very Anxious

So yesterday I started to get very anxious about not being able to take any of the triptan medications if I have a migraine.  (Imitrex, Relpax, Frova, etc)  I have had migraines since I was a toddler -- before they really diagnosed pre-pubescent kids with migraines.  I had MRI after MRI when I was little to try to figure out what was wrong before they finally decided it was migraines. 

My migraines are generally controlled but when I have a bad one they are bad.  Like crying, vomiting, hoping someone puts me out of my misery in any way possible, bad. 

I have seen every kind of doctor in the book -- neurologists (which I still have), chiropractors, pain specialists, etc. 

I have taken almost every type of medicine there is to both prevent and to treat migraines -- several types of blood pressure medicines, anti-depressants, anti-seizures medicines, anti-inflammatories, etc. 

I used to be on a daily anti-seizure medicine which was my saving grace.  It was a brutal medication side-effect wise, but it helped tremendously where nothing else had.  BUT, when I started TTC my neurologist suggested I come off of it since there were no studies regarding whether it was okay to take during pregnancy. 

So, without the anti-seizure medication my only relief is TRIPTANS!  And now my RE says that triptans interact with the follistim and can cause it to not work like it should. 

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to do anything to interfere with the follistim or this cycle so I am willing to forgo the triptans, but I am very very worried about how I will be able to handle this next month. 

I talked to the nurse at my RE's office about it again last night just to make sure I knew what I can and cannot take.  I had a small melt down on the phone with her and she was very nice.  She stepped me through what to do if I feel one coming on and gave me a prescription for Midrin.  I have taken it before, but she changed the dosing from what I had previously done so I am hoping that will help.  I appreciated her kindness as it helped calm me down. 

Migraines are not new to me so I know my triggers and I know generally how to help control them if one comes on so I am hoping I will be able to keep the bad ones away for at least a month.  But I am really scared of this aspect of this process. 

With all that being said, I will not let this fear stop me from cycling so we are going all in.  Off the cliff we go . . .