I went in and had my blood drawn for beta #3 this morning. Now we wait. I have prepared myself that I will probably not get results until tomorrow so I will be pleasantly surprised if they call today.
Honestly, I am kind of numb at this point. I know, I know -- everyone says to enjoy being pregnant today and not worry about what could go wrong, but that is so hard. Maybe it is just habit to try to expect the worst to protect my heart. For whatever reason, I am literally numb. I was going to tell my friend about the pregnancy this weekend and I chickened out. I kept thinking, "what if this doesn't last?" or "what if this is an ectopic?".
The more days that pass and I am still KU the more I am able to relax and little at a time. I am hoping a good third beta will help me start to enjoy this process a little more. Only time will tell.
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