Grateful

All weekend I kept thinking about how grateful I am for so much and so many. 

I am grateful that I have been able to carry this little bean for almost 16 weeks now and I am grateful for every day I am still pregnant -- even though some days when I am sick or feeling huge, I may not feel so grateful. 

I am so grateful for the people who made it possible for us to cycle again which led to this bfp -- for the amazing woman who donated meds to us.  I am not sure I can ever adequately express my gratitude.  To my mom who loaned us the money and then told me this weekend that it is no longer a loan but a gift -- her gift to us.  What an amazing gift she has given us. 

I am grateful for the support system I have.  From the Bump and IDOB ladies who were so supportive during my cycles to the SAIF ladies who have helped keep me sane during this roller coaster ride of being pregnant after IF. 

I am grateful for this blog and the people who read it.  I started this as a way for me to get things off my chest.  I never dreamed anyone would read it, much less comment on it. 

I am eternally grateful for my amazing husband to whom I have been married for 8 years this month.  I cannot imagine my life with anyone else. 

I am grateful for my IRL friends and family who have supported me more than I could have ever imagined. 

I am grateful for the sweetest pups in the world who love me unconditionally. 

And last, but not least, I am grateful for the journey that has led me here.  I know what you are thinking . . . WHAT?!  Grateful for IF?!  But in a way, I am.  I feel like if it were not for dealing with IF I would not have met so many wonderfully strong and supportive people.  I think in ways the struggles have strengthened me as a person and has strengthened my marriage.  And for that, I am grateful.