RE Appt Today

Well, today is my long awaited RE appt.  After being on the bench since the first of September, we are finally going to discuss the plan for getting off the bench and moving forward. 

I am nervous.



The bench has been so good to me.  I have felt good about myself again for the first time in a while.  I have lost weight and focused on things other than how unsuccessful I have been at getting KU. 

I am scared that we are about to head back into the disappointment and heartache that was so nice to escape from. 

On the other hand, I am ready to move forward.  I am not getting any younger and the effects of my Lupron shots will start to wear off soon and we will have to worry about the endo again.  So I guess it is now or never. 

I am SO grateful that DH is coming with me.  It is only the second appt he has ever been to with me but I think it will be good for him to hear all of the information first hand. 

I am really hoping he lets me do some form of modified workout regimine while we are cycling.  I would hate to think I lost all this weight just to stop now and put it back on. 

So....here we go.  Off the cliff.