Slow Motion

Have you ever noticed how being in the TWW is like being in slow motion? Seriously.  It is like all the sudden life slows to a crawl.

 

I had pretty much forgotten (or purposefully blocked from my memory) how much this part sucked.  As much as I want to avoid thinking about it, it is impossible. 

Part of what makes the TWW suck so bad is progesterone.  I say F-U progesterone.  Whether you add it through supplements or just naturally create it, it is a mind F@&(#.  Your boobs hurt.  You have cramping.  You are nauseas.  All easily explained by the progesterone your body creates during the TWW. 

To someone TTC though, I am convinced this is the body's way of getting you back for all the bad things you do to it.  I am imagine my body saying "ha ha!  Take that, b---!"

Despite my best efforts, I am not immune to the torture that is the TWW.  Analyzing every symptom even though trying to pretend you are not.  Thinking about how you will proceed next cycle to try to remain realistic that this one will not work.  obsessing over what you should or shouldn't do, just in case this might work. . .

. . .And ultimately counting the days until you can have some solace or resolution.  Because in the end that is the true torture.  Whether it works or not, the real problem is that you have to wait at least a full 10 days and most times more before you truly know.  There is no rushing it.  There is no cheating.  In the end, you just have to wait. 

and wait....





and wait....