Truly Blessed

WARNING -- This is a totally sappy, AW post -- no, really.  Proceed with caution. 

Some days I cannot believe this is my life.  I have been to many, many baby showers over the years but wasn't sure I would ever have one of my own.  Even after I got pregnant I didn't think anyone would throw us a shower -- honestly.  That is probably why I bought so much stuff early on because if I didn't buy it who would? 

Maybe the years of kind of secluding myself while dealing with IF had kind of warped my view of my world and the people in it.  Or maybe I was just so broken down after dealing with IF I couldn't see a happy ending for us.  My legal assistant actually said to me the other day she couldn't believe the difference a year has made for me.  She said this time last year I was visibly broken down and "defeated".  Defeated -- what an appropriate word.  That is exactly what I was. 

Anyways, I say all of that because I can't even begin to express how overwhelmed I was by the love and support we received last week.  On Tuesday, some former co-workers of mine threw a surprise baby shower for me.  It was so generous and amazing that they thought about us.  They have been SO supportive through the IF journey so it was so nice that they wanted to celebrate the baby with us.  

Then I went home (to Texas) over the weekend to attend what was supposed to be a "small" shower with just some of my family and friends there.  Seriously, I thought my mom, sister, dad, and college roommate would be the only ones there and I was okay with that -- I was honestly grateful to be able to see them and spend time with them before the baby comes. 

Much to my surprise there were almost 20 people there.  One of my best friends since 4th grade came, my mom's neighbors who watched my sister and I grow up, and family friends all came out to celebrate with us.  It was SO MUCH FUN!  We had it a small local restaurant and just ordered pizzas and hung out and talked and caught up.  There were more presents that I could have ever hoped for -- seriously, they literally bought 1/3 of our registry with that one shower.  There was cake and laughter and just a great time. 

I tear up every time I think of the amazing friends and family I have and how wonderful last week was.  To top it off, I still have my "big" shower with my law school friends and yesterday I got e-mail from my husband's office that they want to throw us a shower.  It seriously makes me cry to think about how many amazing people we have in our lives. 

I am truly, amazingly blessed.   

My legal assistant hit the nail on the head.  Less than a year ago, I was defeated.  This was our hail mary cycle.  If it didn't work we were calling it quits because I couldn't emotionally handle any more.  But today, I am 31w3d pregnant with one amazing little girl.  I am trying very hard not to take any of this for granted and to be thankful for everything I have.  Because today my heart is full.