To Those I Have Shared So Much With But Never Met

I am writing two blog posts today because I have very distinct things on my mind and I didn't really feel they belonged in the same post. 

I have been thinking a lot about the friendships I have made over the internet with people I have never met.  Some of the people I tell everything to and feel the closest to are women I met on TB or IDOB. People whose blogs I read and who read this one.  In fact, I just finished knitting a baby blanket for a girl I met on TB who has become such an amazing in real life friend. 

I have never met any of these people but that doesn't make the friendships any less real of my care and concern for them any less strong. 

This has been on my mind a lot lately for a few reasons.  (1)  When I started seeing two lines I felt all the fear and panic that comes with IF brain.  The people I turned to and who helped and encouraged me where my internet friends.  From my 3t friend who let me message her endless pee stick pictures so she could help assure me there was a line to all of the IDOB ladies who sent me FB messages or encouraging words I am not sure what I would have done without any of them.  Of course, one of the people I am SO eternally grateful for is the IDOB member who donated the meds to me so we could even have a chance at a biological child.  I am not sure I will ever be able to express my gratitude to her. 

The other reason this has been on my mind is one of my favorite bloggers/blog stalkers and internet friends is going through some so difficult today.  I have not been able to stop thinking about her and her precious family since she shared the devastating news with us last week.  It's hard to believe that my heart has been so broken for someone I have never met, but it is.  She is such an amazing and strong person.  And on top of it all, she is going through what can only be the most difficult time in her life and she took the time to send me a sweet message after I got my BFP.  I literally welled up with tears when I saw her message on my blog because I was so touched that with all she is going through she thought of me. 

If you are reading this, please take a moment to say a prayer or send positive thoughts to Colleen and her husband today and they go through what I can only imagine will be an incredibly difficult day. 

Too all of the other internet friends I have that stumble upon this or read it -- I cherish you all and am so grateful for all of the friends I have never met.